Little Journeys of my life

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Are you in or out? No, this is not the quest for new rising starts, but have you seen the latest magazine now online? Well, if you haven't then it is your lost...check it out @ http://fashaholic.sleepless-nights.org <--god! I've been plugging it too much already, but hey, all my time was commited into making the site so I am very much proud!

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Love this night! I went out with my friends Pam and Elaine and we had a blast...we ate dinner in Burgoo arguing who's gonna pay...finally, Pam (because of hunger!) decided to pay the bill (thank you!) then after that we rush into the movie, but was late for about 5-10 mins, we've seen SECRET WINDOW such a great movie, it is really a good one..truly mysterious yet very interesting....I highly recommend it to people! After that, we shop for awhile because some stores are alrady closing...damn! Body Shop is having a sale and I forgot to buy the vitamin E cream (which i just remember now that I am home!) damn! It was such a good but missed opportunity...I wanna go there tomorrow...there are so many things I want to buy in Rockwell (right pam?) so many nice new things...the pants and lots of other stuff.. I was able to buy a new earrings! Pam did too, w/o knowing the price (stupid pam!) and of course, elaine, who was supposed to be penniless bought a new hat and earrings..gawd! I love shopping and putting us together (3 of us!), we always buy something even though we are completely penniless...haha...that is how a shopaholic shop...never goes home w/o buying anything...


Oh, the fun didn't stop there, we decided to have a dessert in UCC coffee and we picked up Elaine's mom (remember we are penniless) and we ate there...so delicious!! lovely...


One more thing...did I mention that I was the one who was driving? Yeah...all the way...it was exhausting, but also fun..I had a great time...hope to make it happen soon!

Thanks to gym Okay, so finally I am going to work out my lazy ass and hopefully be energetic in it and not get bored of it...we work out for about 2.5 hrs (me and rose) and we tested the steam room which is really neat! I love just sitting but still sweating...so tomorrow would be great I hope! (I wish my body will not be tired or aching, the workout is really tough!)


Also, our pre-graduation is nearing, so I got to look great, although I don't think the week long exercise would be enough, but still...

Doing solo Yes, I am in the solo mood this morning at the gym (rose went tired! too tired I guess) So I did solo. First it was boring...and truly exhausting, but after awhile, I met new people and my instructor was beginning to communicate (finally!) and then suddenly in the middle of my crunches -- "hey hero stop staring at sandara!" Guess who Sandara is? Yeah, it is me...and then there is this guy who looks like Hero and they are teasing him to me. It was okay I guess because he looks innocent (unlike pam's stalker) this guy is still totoy, he is from my rival school Ateneo , he is only 16, and he is with his mom in the gym (the mom was friendly!)...he looks okay I guess kinda Hero way...when I was done, I sat for awhile and my gym instructor talk to me to ask what I want to loose (i told him) and he told me if I want to loose of gain weight...Of course, I need to loose weight!!!! He told me I don't need to loose weight...hello!!! I am fat!! Anyways, it was flattering of him to say it, and Hero (his real name is Jason) was there, and the instructor just kept on teasing us...but it was okay, no harm done...I am much deadlier than he is...unlike Pam's stalker...haha...


Tomorrow is the pre-gradution rites...after that on Thursday is the College Recognition Rites... (1030 to 1200) all of my La Salle friends (since outsiders are not allowed) are welcome to join and come! Be there...

Currently I am checking out the website of The South Beach Diet Since I started going to the gym, I became a diet freak...thanks to my fats, I was thinking more and more how to loose and never see them again...so I religiously work-out to the edge of my limit. Or whatever you call it. And since I am being totally religious about it and concentrating on everything that I can do to help me maximize my loosing of weight..I made a new journal wherein I list all the stuff I ate (both the good and mostly bad!) So I will track and know what I was splurging on...I can't tell you the site...but if you are a friend, you can ask me to tell you...I don't want to post it in here because you people might get sick of hearing me talk about my body, weight, food, and all those things that a normal person wouldn't want to here. I am different alright, I am special in my own way...


The stuff that are in today....and I might doing an article about them, since I am on the "diet freak" stage... are the diet stuff that you can use and adopt to be able to make your diet much easier and faster...the article will come as soon as finish collecting my resources, I don't want to post such unresearch article so watch out for a good one...(I hope!)


Pre rehearsal for Thursdays recognition rites will be tomorrow, the class will be from 8 am to 8 pm (Darn! I can't go to the gym tomorrow) and on Thursday, all my friends are invited to join us in our Recognition Rites from 1030 to 1200 nn...


Photobucket is currently sucking that is why the images are all gone! So try to live with it...

I love them all! Today, was the first day that I can see my block mates once again..it was such a nice event. Although the day was exhausting and my contact lens irritating...I felt so much love and wonderful pleasant feeling...I love my block mates dearly, they are such wonderful people and alot of things you can learn from them, some you'll hate, some you'll love, but of course at the end, everyone plays a special place in my heart, something I wouldn't trade for anything in the world (well, except for a 100billion dollars and a free travel to all the country in the world!)


Let me begin telling the story of my hectic day...first we went to the NORTH CONSERVATORY, fall in line, got my toga (yup, I'm so happy to see it, although the cap keeps on falling of my head...) then paid the personnel for my pictures on Saturday...VCD was offered too, but I guess that would be too much...after that, we didn't attend the Penitential Service (bad right?) After that we went to Yuchengco to have rehearsal for the College Recognition Rites -- you see, only College of Business and Economics have that kind of special graduation, basically we walk twice on the stage -- oppps...march, not walk(it is going to happen tomorrow!)...well, we didn't also attend the Baccalaureate Mass since we are busing pigging out at Pizza Hut...the new pizza flavor is so delicious, you have to try it! Then we spend so many time there that when we finish eating it was already time for picture taking..since there are alot of marketing students (yes, that is my course!) we told the guy to separate us from the other block! (so we ended having a block picture instead --with minor friends that are irregulars) It was really something...oh, did I tell you that my block is a "picture-aholic" and I love it...we took every opportunity to take pictures, I will post some as soon as they are uploaded in our Yahoo Groups...haha, I guess we had the most pictures! Then we went to KFC for some of my friends were really hungry...after that we went to buy a FIC ice cream (green tea!) then off to the PE sports complex building for the rehearsal on the Graduation ceremony which is happening on Sat.


I saw this wonderful sites selling earrings, necklace, belts and more... http://www.lulufrost.com <--check it out!


Gym tomorrow..I just too tired..maybe I'll sleep earlier tonight, except I am somewhat insomiac (not totally) is there such thing as half insomiac? haha...but that is how I describe myself...poor me...


My gawd..I don't have any dress to wear anymore...what will I do???? Shopping is the answer...but when???

did you know this event ever? Today is Oct 7, 2004 it is the National Depression Screening Day. As part of the yearly event, health providers throughout the nation will be offering screening sessions for people who believe they may be suffering from depression, bipolar disorder, anxiety, or post-traumatic stress syndrome.

In a given year, 9.5 percent of the U.S. population suffers some form of depressive illness, and women experience depression about twice as often as men. Depression can be caused by outside influences such as traumatic events or by internal factors such as sudden illness or a genetic predisposition. Because many people don't recognize that depression is a serious condition that may not go away on its own, it often goes untreated.

While proper diet and exercise are key to reducing the effects of depression, most depression requires additional treatment such as medical intervention or regular participation in support groups. If you suspect that you or someone you know may suffer from depression, take advantage of this special day to seek out help at your nearest medical facility.



Got back from the gym and felt so great..I'm going back tomorrow and later I'll shop at SM for some clothes..haha...busy as a bee...

Just got back from my SM, I went there, I was about to take the cab since our car is not allowed to (it is in thursday, that means license plate with 7 & 8 are not allowed to go out). But by generosity, my dad decided to drive for me and bring me to the mall. I went to hunt the mall for new shoes (I am a shoe addict!) and as a promise to myself, I will buy the shoes that I wanted, and thank god for they had my size, so now...I am admiring my new shoes, too bad the other one I am dreaming about is not available, I can't have both worlds!, but then maybe next time...and since some products of Body Shop is on sale, I did my little shopping spree, bought a new lipstick, a body butter, and a eye makeup remover...my body care stuff are almost all from the Body Shop I am getting crazy over it...I look around for great finds, and I did...but I don't want to get loose and just shop like mad (like I always do) because my card is on the verge of bursting and making my parents hate me! So I just admire those things I would love to buy: the chain belt with pearls (so simple yet sinful to look at!), and the double necklace with a Y design (it is in green/pink/silver/pearl colors) oh my...I going to go back next time and buy those...


Oh I was expecting a quiet shopping time, then someone pass by and told his wife that I look like Sandara...yeah yeah...


The taxi man was quiet, but I just couldnt resist on asking...according to news, starting October 16 there would be a price hike on taxi fares. Instead of starting at 25, it would now start at 30, plus every minute counts right now, even if you are caught in traffic, I am not sure, but 2 pesos per minute you get stuck? Terrible increase for us who are riding, meanwhile, a great relief on there part for more revenue will be generated... the only things the taxi driver told me was: "Di pa naman pinapatupad at sinasabi sa amin"


Last message to everyone: Copycats will die! , I hate copycats...I just plainly hate them...thinking of new things in site and doing original stuff is just plainly being creative, but stealing them from others...tsk..tsk..please be ashame...i know one day they will suffer and pay...just wait...

"The wisest mind has something yet to learn."
George Santayana (1863-1952)

I just am inspired by the quote above. Since I am currently searching for a job although it is not on my top prioirity right now..but still...

5566 got a new album it is the compilation of all the love songs they did and some new ones...and it is entitled as -- "LOVE", spiffy! I need to purchase it...

Speaking of love, some girls really do are lucky. I got a friend (not exactly friend friend) she has this boyfriend, he is RICH and when I say rich, I really meant it, the type of guy who drive around a BMW, who lives in Makati with a huge house, and who can afford anything. And yes, by anything I mean, a Rolex watch for the girl and him. It is the Rolex watch that is specially made for "him and her" collection. Something that will match two person. And not only that, he also bought a "him and her" ring for both of them...my my my...some girls are really really lucky!! I wonder what the guy will give on their first year anniversary? Maybe a house? Hum...

News also that a friend got a job in San Miguel Corp....lucky lucky...

I'm too drained by the gym today but not feeling any achy feeling, seems like my body is adopting to it...GOOD RIDDANCE!

Yesterday was the BIG day The day started with so much things to do! Really there are really so many things that I need to share and tell you that this might be the longest ever entry I am going to write...Everything is just so bright, full, happy, and also tiring!


I woke up, feeling normal, actually was really tired and was not in the mood to stand up, but i need to! So I got up and ate a very light light breakfast...We were supposed to be at the parlor around 9 am, but as usual we are late, we went there around 10 am already and the one who was going to do my hair and makeup was like "Kala ko 9 am? Kanina pa kami eh.." But smiling, but still...hello! You could sense the patheticness in his voice.. Ugh...I hate him, but I can't since he is doing my make-up...which thankfully a lot of people completemented to be beautiful, they love it and even ask where I got my make-up! This is the look:


So I went there together with my mom, we arrive around 1:30 pm, alot of people are already there, our call time is 1:00pm but we are so not yet prepared, so we were kind-of late. Thankfully the program will start around 3pm, but it didn't, it actually started earlier! 2:30 pm, and it was at first exciting, but slowly it was tiring and boring after they called my name and I went to the stage (thankfully I didn't tripped!) the feeling that I felt was really of mix emotions, my hands were kinda cold and I was really thinking "I hope I won't trip...please don't trip, please, please! "

I am officially a graduate! I am NOW officially a graduate! It was really an event that comes only once in your life (well, for some...) It was something that makes me feel that I should be ready for the world. That I should be ready to face the future and be ready to make a step. really scary...

Back to the story, the conferral address was given by Fr. Bienvenido F. Nebres who is the President of Ateneo De Manila, yup, our rival university...funny right? It was really something, I mean why would they go and get someone to speak in front of La Sallians that came from the rival school? But anyways, the speech at first, was interesting and people even laugh at some of his whimisical notes, yup, he mentioned Ateneo and La Salle rivalry. Then after a few more minutes, it got boring...haha...we were almost ready to sleep..(I'm bad!) After that the awarding of the academic awards, then special awards, then conferring of degress, then presentation of graduates (this is were we went up one by one...CBE took more than half of the graduates!) then Alumni Oath Taking (I am now officially an alumni- yikes!) Then response from Saint Anthony Tiu our president. His speech was enlightening and touching, it was not boring at all. It was anything but boring... I almost cried but tried to hide it...here is a text he send me after the graduation:


Congrats my fellow grads! Lets start picking up our starfish and make a lifetime difference. "I am a La Sallian and it is worth living for" God bless in our endeavours.

It was really touching and I love the speech he gave, the story he shared about the boy and the starfish was truly inspiring, let me re-tell it to you...

There was a boy who was walking near the seashore and he was collecting some starfish that the tide has bring to the land, he was returning it to the sea so that it can still live and go on...a man approach him and told him 'what are you doing?' the boy told the man, 'I am making a difference, I am returning this starfish to make it live again and make a difference' after telling the man his purpose, the man told him that 'There are so many seas in the world, there are so many starfish that the tide carries, you can't return it one by one,you can't do it ... how can you make a difference?' the boy look up to the man, and he continued walking and continue collecting starfish. ' I did make a difference, I just made a difference to that starfish' he ended.

That I think is one of the climax of the speech he gave, and I was really touch by that part...then he ended it up with the line from the lord of the rings. The one where Frodo was talking to Sam. hum...I'm not sure with what exactly it was, but I know it was the part where they are saying that there is still some good in the world, and that is worth living for and with that my heart just want to burst and cry...

After the speech we sang our Alma Mater (hopefully not the last time) then the exits of the University mace, faculty...then the graduates who were so happy and getting all the pictures with one another, our block took alot of pictures once again, I really guess it is a hobby! Oh, my friend Rica also got a videocam and shot us with it, so much really happened! that is just some pictures I took together with my friends.

We ate at Aristocrat, me and my mom and we ordered so much and so expensive that we thought we should have went to Saisaki. I love Japanese food, so it was really something! this is the pic of my mom and I after the graduation... it was really dark and it was already night...so I guess, the picture was kind-of dark too...oh and this is me in my after the graduation look... I just am so so happy!

Today we just came from Wok With Lu and we ate so so much, I am so stuffed...I really ate alot I don't know why...but I am so darn hungry this day...hum...we are going to have spaghetti later! I am excited...I love eating! haha...oh, we bought home some ensaymada from Artistocrat and it was really really delicious, unfortunately, it was very expensive P220 for a few small pieces, but it was really tasty and delicious! It was really a mouth-watering treat, you should try it!

Oh...so much was written today...maybe I'll post more later or tomorrow...

Finally! Carnivale is going to be shown in HBO here in the Philippines...finally, another HBO series worth watching...

I remembered I had never been in a carnivale that is small, like the towny carnivale, or the carnivale in HBO, the usual carnivale here in the Philippines that people go to are the big ones. Star City and Enchanted Kingdom are the only parks/carnivale I've been through, and never to a real old-kind carnivale. But it seems fun to be at, unfortunately it is dangerous here in our country and you just can't trust the techinicians...tsk.tsk...alot of people dies due to accidents not only in carnivales, but also in those big amusement parks...

On Discovery Channel I saw the mythbuster...It was a very interesting show. They solve mytery by doing it themselves. First stop the vacuum tight toilet bowl found in airplanes...they try to figure out if it can really suck the butt. Yeah, to prove if it is harmful I think (I wasn't able to watch the start) but they tested it tried it, and did a remake of the scene, borrowed an old, junk toilet bowl from an airplane, place his butt on the bowl and put the pressure on, and he sure felt something!! So just be warn: if traveling, flush the toilet only after you stood up from the toilet bowl and not while you are still sitting on it!

Next the mystery of the dough popping on a heated car. There was this lady that bought a dough (usually in can) for making home-made bread, and she left it in her car. heated under a temperature of I don't know what. But the guys in mythbuster, tried all possible kinds of dough and place it inside a car and heated it...the temperature slowly rise and one by one some of the dough pop out (directly out of the can) because of the intense heat it has absorbed. Thus proving that it is not the fault of the manufacturer but really a physics thing.

The next was the mystery of the falling lawyer...from the 4th floor.. unfortunately the cable went blank on me... so much for more myth buster!!

Oh, I did saw another great thing on Discovery Travel and Adventure, this girl went to India and tried alot of cool stuff, that I think an average tourist won't be able to get into...so I think it is a wonderful eye-opening experience that has open my horizon towards India and its hidden wonders!

Oh my oh my...a member of my favorite boy band is coming here in the Philippines...should I go? I'll be on my own...and it is far from here..

I went to Tutuban today First thing first, I felt sad because I wasn't able to go to the gym today...but hey I did a mega-shopping spree at Tutuban (it is a mall wherein you can buy mucho affordable things!) it is so great...I felt so happy and stress-free from much of my shopping spree, I didn't buy that much though (0kay, I did buy alot!) haha..but it was less than what I usually buy from that place because I went there almost PM. We first had lunch at my grandma's house since it is our grandpa's death anniversary..I'm telling you: I ATE SO MUCH! haha...but the food is great all bought from the resto! After that, it was already 2pm, we went to Tutuban and my-gawd! Not only did I bought 1 or 2 watches..haha..I bought so much more! I also bought wallets, PJ's, bag, bag, bag...earrings (it is irresistable and so cute!) belts, skirts, my gawd, if you ever visited the Philippines, this is the one-stop shopping haven! You can buy alot with less than a $100 bucks! Trust me you can never go wrong with Tutuban, just make sure you know how to ask for discounts because prices are really cheaper than it is. By the end of the day we ate at Pizza Hut, again, I ate the Roast Beef Pizza which is really delicious, you should go try it!


I guess being BUM is a great way to have more shopping time..now all I need is more money..I am so running out of it...

Ah-ha! I just finish watching CSI:3 and it was a great shocking case. Twisted, yet something new and something that has a new learning.

Do you know that you can be pregrant even if you are a virgin???

Weird huh? But it is true, remember our brain can dictate what we should do and sometimes thinking of wanting to be pregnant can lead to a feeling of being pregnant. Okay here are some of the effects that you could feel when you really wants to feel like being pregrant -- abdominal pain, your menstration may stop, lactating (if excessive of too much already) on both breast, and others...this is really new to me, hum...wonder why people would do such thing? Eww...

Tune it to Discovery Channel Okay, so I am without AXN, without National Geographic. But i found a new channel to watch..other than my Asian series fanatics which is very lot in the cable...but Discovery Channel has once again touch and made me want to watch 24/7. There are alot of new series that just makes me wonder and listen to it. The reports are really great and very interesting. Like the MYTHBUSTER, HOURS ASIA , URBAND LEGENDS , and much more...so really there are alot of things to look forward! So better tune in and turn on your tv set. Because alot of intersting as well as educating features are seen in Discovery Channel!


I just want to share the episode of Hours Asia which features a Korean and an American love story...did you know that in Korea there is a Bride School (hosted by the American government)? Especially made for brides who will marry an American. You know, the cultures are very different from each other that they need to learn and soon to adapt since it maybe their permanent home. They teach the soon-to-be-brides how to cook American food, eat in an American way, act in an American way.


Anyways, isn't interesting? All this and more on Discovery channel! (okay, nuff about the advertising...I'm not getting paid)

Rockwell is where the treasure is! I went to see Shark Tale today with my good friend Elaine, good because she can really sense great fashion style, she really really is great with it! Bad on the other hand because we always end up load-full of clothes! I bought two new shoes and a pink-bright jacket! It is all so cute and stylish, the shoes is on sale...and the jacket is not the typical jacket you have on your closet, it is funk-unique..too much words to explain it...haha..I'm just happy to have shop (again!) I guess I would always live like this? I hope not, or else I'll go broke!

We saw local artist today..Dingdong Dantes and Judy Ann (her face isn't big...) separately okay? No rumor here...of and Paolo Contis minus Nancy Castiliogne.

Anyways, so much has happened this weekend...I'll post it next time, I am currently in addiction with this new online game called MU it's like Ragnarok but much more simplier (i think) and free! This is my first time to play this kind of thing, thanks to my brother -- I AM NOW OFFICIALLY AN ADDICT! Ugh...I didn't sleep until 230 am yesterday just because I want to level up my character! haha...weird me!

Need to go to the gym tomorrow...I need to loose weight...I'm 45kg gr....

October is what?

1. Time to shop (again!) lots of sales going on, but usually I prefer the less crowded places..like Rockwell's sale, just a few people, celebrities and more bargains to choose from..

2. Movie horror fest marathon...i was able to see Exorcist the beginning, Exorcism, Haunted Dolls 2

3. To unwind and breathe, experience the wonderful freedom of being a jobless person...

4. Gym fanatics unite! Oh, I am loving the gym everytime I'm attending, because I knew a better me will walk out of it..

5. Online Games..it was addicting and finally introduced to me, thanks to my little brother

6. To create an article for martin-lounge.com and Fashaholic.

7. Discovery channles new, wanted, interesting researches

8. Octoberfest...beers, beers, beers! Although I don't drink. Still it is something!

9. Read new book, for relaxation

10. Movie galores, lots of new movies in town..can't wait to see it!

When all else fails, cry for help!
No I didnt get to see Jason Hsu, Toro, or Johnny Cheng when they arrived here -- yup, I am an Asian addict, but I didn't attend the "meet and greet" sucks when you know you want something badly and couldn't have it. It sucks.

I still haven't tried the DVD yearbook I have and it's been sitting around here quite sometime already, they told me there is a neat-o game in the DVD, plus the launching showed us a lot of cool features! I guess lucky me for having the yearbook already on hand!

I just finished watching Saved! and it was a great movie, actually some parts of it are really true, like some religous people take it to the next level and force people in believing or joining them. I don't think it is the righteous thing to do, we have free will and we should take good use of it.

Can't believe that the face on taxi has once again rise! Grr...now I don't have money, I don't have a job, I don't have life...(kidding!) Actually every tues and thurs and sometimes sunday my mom and me ---we go out and try the aerobics or tae-bo class, yes, a definite bonding moment! I enjoy it because at the same time, I am burning those unwanted fats!! Almost all my friends are getting gym-natic and getting slimmer...so if you think you are FAT go and work that ass out, being lazy won't get you anymore (I know some people who are that kind! and it is too late before they realize it!) Thus making life-- sucks. And I go out with my friends on Saturdays, I go out with my dad or my sister on weekdays, I sometimes go out and shop by myself...I bought lots of things recently and haven't had the chance to wear or use them..hum...maybe this Sunday since I have a celebration?

You know, even though I don't have a job, I think my life is currently full and with life right now...It is because I'm finally doing stuff I wanted and when I wanted to. I can relax whenever I wanted to..and I am going to take class on Flash (hopefull it fits my schedule since I dont want to take a cab), but who cares I want to learn it!

Since the topic is cool! haha..I added to my favorites, so if you want to re-read it and next time it isn't here anymore...go check my favorites page


Although it would make things much easier
in the dating world, relationships rarely see
mutual break-ups. One person is usually the
heartbreaker, while the other mulls over the
break-up and pain for weeks, even months.
It's never easy to break up with someone
you've shared good times with (and even if
they were bad times, they were still times).
But the person who does the breaking up
feels like less of a bad guy by offering that
sense of truce: "It's not you, it's me. We'll still
be friends, right?" This peace offering of
friendship provides the dumper with the
solace of knowing they aren't such a horrible
person because they still want to be friends
with their ex.
I've created a monster

Not only does it give the dumper the comfort
of knowing they aren't monsters, but by
wanting to remain friends, it also allows the
dumper to feel that their former lover will still
be in their life, and they won't have to miss
having them around. So now the dumper can
move on with their life with ease, and with the
pleasure of having coffee with their former
mate every so often -- but the ex whose heart
was ripped out and chewed up by the person
who keeps leaving them friendly messages
and e-mail isn't a happy camper. Obviously,
these messages on the machine and coffee
dates don't last long, and if they do, they end
even worse than the break-up. Yes, being
friends with an ex-lover is an impossible feat:
find out why. Exes must stay that way.

You've Seen Each Other Naked

Although it may be possible to have casual
sex with a friend, even this can damage a
relationship. As hard as it is to accept, it's
difficult to bring a relationship back to its
normal state after having been most intimate
with someone. You will always have an
image of that person naked, and memories
of the trysts will always be triggered by the
smell of her skin or perfume, or even by
hearing a song that you once made
passionate love to. And as thick-skinned as
you are, it's hard to see the person in the
same light after being entangled in each
other's skin and sharing a moment of sheer
ecstasy with one another. Why else can't
exes become friends?

You Can't Confide In Each Other

As hard as two exes try to stay friends, they
can never really confide in one another other.
How do you tell your ex that you have a hot
date tonight, or that you and your new lover
are going away on a steamy getaway? You
can't even tell your ex that the reason you're
smiling so much is because a woman has
just pleasured you like never before. You can
tell her these things, but new lovers and
mates are always going to be a sensitive
issue. It's even harder to tell her how hurt you
were that your date stood you up the other
night, thanks to your sense of pride.
Remaining friends seems to provide us with
the security blanket that the person who has
been in our life will still be there, and we can
call on them every once in a while to find out
how they are -- but we'll never actually know
how they really are.

Always One-Sided Bitterness

Since break-ups are rarely one-sided, one
party will always feel resentment or
bitterness towards the other person. Even if
your ex is feigning friendship, she's not
sincerely your friend; so if it seems like plans
with your new potential woman are always
being sabotaged, they just might be.
Jealousy Comes Into Play And where there's
bitterness, there's jealousy. And the truth of
the matter is, it's hard to be sincerely happy
for your ex when they've just found the new
love of their life.



You Don't Want Them With Anyone Else

It's human nature to be jealous or resentful
when our ex finds a new person to cuddle up
to, even if we don't have feelings for them
anymore. It almost becomes a race of who
will find the new lover first, a challenge
especially brought on by the person who was
dumped. Even for the person who did the
breaking up, the thought of someone else
taking your place in the memories that you
and your ex shared is hard, and sometimes
extremely painful to fathom. Passion Still
Exists Even if your relationship was
completely problem-ridden, chances are that
the passion and sexual chemistry between
the two of you still exists (unless lack of
attraction was the reason for your break-up).
This is a recipe for disaster because it
means that every time you get together under
this new "friendship" premise, the lust and
passion you have makes it more likely that
you'll end up in "one more" night of
unbridled "goodbye" sex, for old times sake.
This brings you right! back to square one --
how you felt right after your break-up, and just
when you were doing so well.

Moving on

Leaving the past behind is hard enough, and
you don't want part of your past still
programmed in your cell phone. Although it's
easier for the dumper, recovering from a
break-up is still a hard thing to do since it
means being single again, getting back into
the dating scene, and no longer making that
daily goodnight call you and your ex used to
share. But having that person still lingering in
your life as a constant reminder makes it
even harder to move on with your life, meet
new people and turn a fresh page. It's
almost like keeping one foot in the past, and
another struggling to make it back into the
pickup scene. It also might be a better idea to
leave things with pleasant memories of the
other person, rather than drag the potentially
doomed relationship through the mud. In a
perfect world, the ideal would be for exes to
succeed at being friends, but in one where
bitterness, jealousy, passion, and human
nature exceed reasoning and rational
thought, it's impossible. So unless the two of
you were the best of friends before; both
broke up on the same terms in a perfectly
mutual break-up; both have no qualms about
either of you seeing new people, and have
both instilled a total honesty policy, better to
leave the friendship behind... along with the
memories.

Finally a new site that is worth going to...since I am an Asian addict, this site really works for me: http://www.geocities.com/renfu_czjr

check it out!

I am sorry for the delays and late updates

But I am very busy with this new "women-empowerment" site, and I am really working hard on it... Oh, if you want to join it this is the site address: http://martin-lounge.com, it is not an online magazine, but a site for women...alot of stuff would be put into it. I am included in the council member, so you might be seeing my stuff soon. It will officially open on Nov 1, so watch out for it!!

I've updated the content page go view it here: http://tabulas.com/joanna/content.html

I've added my wishlist, I hope I can buy everything!

I saw this on an interesting site... For those who don't know, it is a restaurant where the people serving are attractive women, they are very popular in the United States and had 375 stores in more than 46 states! Not a typical family restaurant. Sixty-eight percent of customers are male, most between the ages of 25-54. Hooters does not market itself to families, but they do patronize the restaurants. Ten percent of the parties we serve have children in them. Hooters is in the hospitality business and provides the best possible service to anyone coming through the door. For this reason, the chain offers a children's menu. Alot of issues has been posted against the establishement for hoe they sell their product, but still they are going well and strong! That is how hot hooters is! and now they come up with a new brand of product:

Hooters Brand Potato Chips.

Interesting right? Tell me how it taste if you ever see one...
Oh, somebody called about an interview, unfortunately I am going to attend school tomorrow. Why do they call at times that are inappropriate for me?

Updates!

Currently doing 2 new articles for FASHAHOLIC, so watch out for that, I've been very busy that is why the slow growth, but don't worry, I promise to add new articles especially for our frequent visitors...

Next things have really been kind-of "hectic", and what I mean is hectic on a funny happy side.

Got to school yesterday and returned my toga and got money for that, I also received my class pic and grad pic...so wonderful! I love it..although I wish I could have more pictures...then after that went to grocery shopping, then home, then played MU, my mom went home and goes ga-ga and bought alot of DVD...and well, I love it! So I have been watching from yesterday to this morning...

WHITE CHICKS a definite hit in my list...I love the movie so hilarious and entertaining, they both played such great roles I love the clothes that they had show case. The story isn't bad either, a kind of easy to understand one..oh, watch out for Lattrell character greasy-macho!

TIMELINE finally I was able to see this film, it was engrossing since I love historic type of movies, the plot was not that strong but is twisted, it has a mystery that will slowly unfold at the end. A sweet romantic (I can consider it!) action historic-slash-future-movie. You must see it!

NEW POLICE STORY jacky chan, nicolas tse, daniel wu...what more can you ask for? Well, the story is AMAZING, the plot thickens and revolves around the "Gang of 5" bandits led by Daniel Wu, who looks so delicious in this movie!Oh, it is an Asian movie that will surely hit the international market! Jacky Chan did a great job (once again!) with this one! This was just shown recently in Hong Kong, I think last month, so it is a great movie...Nicolas' acting wasn't that great but wasn't that bad too..I love his eyes, smile..(oh enough!) Just watch it, the action is great! Another Jacky Chan hit!

yesterday was just G-R-E-A-T I woke up late because I slept late, I was dedicatedly playing MU online and lost track of time. It was a very addicting game...Anyways, I went to QC sports club and have my nails and hair done (yes, once again!) I took care of my "bangs" business and re-do it once again..after that I went to Ongpin (it is the chinatown here in the Philippines!) and it was such a place that I could just --waste my dad's money...haha...I bought lots of VCD and OST. Like MARS, THE OUTSIDERS, 5566 NEWEST ALBUM C'EST SI BON and there was so much more but some of them don't have english subtitles, so I couldnt and will not understand it so I end up, not buying it. But I bought some great VCD's that has translation like the TWINS EFFECT 2, MOVING TARGET, ENTER THE PHOENIX I want to buy Yesterday Once More, A1: Headline and a whole lot more, but nothing was in english subtitle..poor me, I think I should study chinese once more...I went to yesasia.com and I want this --> http://global.yesasia.com/en/PrdDept.aspx/pid-1003873302/did-0/code-c/section-music think I should pre-order too? hum...what you would do if you love something so much!

After that I went home with a happy face, buying so much CD was just pure aromatheraphy for me! Next, time to prepare my self because we have a dinner party to attend to. It was a wedding held in Century Seafood Hotel, and the groom and bride were just two opposites, the girl look so young, like my friend Marchie, she just looks like her. And she is successfully working in the US but went back and then they met, the guy however is working in BOSCH...and well, I think they love each other that is all that matters, the party was not that "alive" it was more of the conservative type? I don't know but alot of people were just too quite, it is like a "wedding-of-deafness" anyways....the food was AMAZING and I was so fulfilled, I think I hit the top!! It started with the cold cuts, shrimps, soup, pasta (pancit), crab, fish, abalone, veggie dish (es), one-way duck (which I was dreaming about for so long now), and ended up with ube sweets, and mongo soup (ewww...)

But what makes it an amazing day besides the CD of 5566,

that made me SMILE when I was in the party,
that made me SMILE after the party,
that made me SMILE after talking to in the party,
that made me SMILE when I was on the way home,
that made me SMILE when I went home and wash my face,
that made me SMILE while I was texting and about to sleep,
that made me SMILE while I was reading some magazine to get to sleep,
that made me SMILE before I went to close my eyes,
that made me SMILE when I woke up this morning,
that made me SMILE when I was eating my breakfast,
that made me SMILE when I was in the gym,
that made me SMILE until now,
that made me SMILE and maybe until this smile just fade...

was this guy (we talk and text), I had a crush on him...and my gosh, my father and his father are good friends, my ama and his ama are very good friends too. I saw him in the party and I was surprise that my family knew his family...(small world?) his dad even called my name (yes, he knows me) since I similarly look like my father...oh-my-gawd...I just kept on smiling...

Greenhills The place where you can shop at a bargain, but not as cheap as the one in Tutuban. But still, I came home with lot of loots, unfortunately our derma ended up late so when we went back to greenhills my mom suggested to go home already (UGH!) I was eyeing this white skirt and ballet shoes but time was not with me..I hate it! I wish I could go back and buy those things I want to..so much for not deducting my wishlist, but rather -- adding much more things! Gawd, this sickness of being a shopaholic really has no cure...

Oh by the way... I am still SMILING <--didn't get this? read my past post...

Freedom of speech and writing Truly it has been one of the major debate of all times. If we have freedom of speech and writings why then are journalist condemned and being assaulted by what they wrote? Isn't not that they are just expressing their freedom and rights? I know it is a bit long, but it is about YOUR right, be known and not clueless about issues that matters.

Although I am not currently a student (anymore) of DLSU I should say that I feel so sad for Meryll , she is the editor of The La Sallian and is a friend of mine. I believe in her power to write, for she writes beautifully and with sense...but then an incident may cause her everything. A major offense would be press against her. I thought that each student has a freedom to express what they feel after all we are living in a democratic world. If not, I would be killed by now for saying some nasty stuff about our administration which is currently and will still continue going down the drain.

I'll show you the "OPINION PAGE" she wrote about the OSAC's , it is called the The EFF-Word, Meryll Yan's "Scornful" Editorial to other people, but really and plainly it is just a mere expression of her opinion, after all that is an OPINION, nothing right or wrong...


The Eff- Word
by: Meryll Yan

Efficiency is not a pretty word. Phonetically, it requires a lot of labor for the mouth. When pronounced, it starts with the upper teeth hitting the lower lip, then the “i” requires the timely vibration of vocal chords, the next syllable requires your tongue to hit your upper palate, and finally you end with your upper and lower teeth gritted. One might say that the tediousness of its pronunciation also reflects the labor needed to achieve efficiency in real life. But really, does it follow?

While efficiency as a word might be an oral chore, it is demanded of all institutions, and educational ones are no exception. There are many definitions for efficiency, so to avoid controversy, I will just use the scientific one: efficiency = speed x accuracy. With this in mind, how does one characterize DLSU-Manila’s efficiency? For DLSU, I can only give mixed assessments. Some units in our university would score an A on this efficiency test, while others would not fare nearly as well.

For example, our online enrollment system is an efficiency trailblazer. Aside from eliminating lines and the need for anger management therapy, this online system provides Lasallian students a quick, easy, and accurate system for determining their schedule for the next term. Another efficiency crown jewel for DLSU-M is our library. Again, it involves an online system, the Millennium Web, and it provides students a hassle-free means for finding the right resource materials. No need for library cards or catalogue cards. For these two cases, speed checked, accuracy checked.


However, other aspects of university management leave a lot to be desired. One example is the difficulty in having student activities approved. As a case in point, fundraising activity proposals require an anal effort from student leaders. First, they have a very strict timeline. According to the Office of Student Activities (OSAc) manual, fund-raising activities require the submission of proposals at least a month but not earlier than two months in advance. And these requirements are no small potatoes. The project proposal alone requires the inclusion of at most fifteen components: title of the activity; date, time, and venue; objectives; brief description of the activity; persons responsible; breakdown of expenses; projected income; remaining organizational funds; provisions for profit and loss; signature of faculty adviser; requirements for sponsorships and solicitations; all contracts to be entered into by the organizations; tentative reservation from the reservation office; letter or request to the local government (if necessary); and sample tickets (in the case of raffles, etc.). Typing this enumeration alone was tiring enough, imagine having to draft and submit everything. Accuracy, maybe; speed, definitely not.

The activity proposal system becomes an even greater chore when OSAc directly handles the approval. The requirements are more stringent and the chances of approval are slimmer.


With these in mind, the current activity approval procedure is fit for obsessive-compulsives, not Lasallians who have to juggle a trimestral system with extra-curricular responsibility. Yes, this system mirrors that of the corporate world. But corporate people have eight hours with pay to pass requirements, while Lasallian student leaders have only one or two hours in-between classes at best. Not to mention having to squeeze in the drafting of these requirements during the evenings at the expense of study-time.

Another problem for Lasallian students and even faculty is the use of physical facilities and the entry of “outside” people. While some organizations have had less difficulty than others, the idea remains that reserving and using our facilities is not a walk in the park. This is especially true when the function room is brand-new, like the Yuchengco seminar rooms. I can imagine that this reluctance is in order to preserve the rooms’ immaculateness. Yet this reason posits that students are unthinking vandals who would deface the first brand new table they see.


The OSAc manual states the following rationale for its activity approval policies and guidelines: “All activities by any unit of De La Salle University-Manila are the responsibility of the University. The implementation of these activities and the way various publics-both internal and external-respond and participate, lay open the reputation and integrity of the University. Thus, in all activities, excellence befitting the Lasallian image should be the primary concern.”

I do agree with the rationale, however, it’s the implementation I am at odds with. For instance, it is very easy to identify those activities that smear the reputation and integrity of the school. Those that promote alcohol, for example. Yet the problem involves those activities in between-the so-called gray space. How do you define activities that promote or do not promote the school? Disagreements are then inevitable because there are no definite criteria for what constitutes “reputation and integrity”.


Of course there are good reasons for these strict policies. The fund-raising requirements are obviously to prevent corruption and the selectivity for the use of facilities aims to preserve their cleanliness and functionality.

Yet aside from being inefficient, these systems imply that students are untrustworthy. As an educational institution, a far greater sin than inefficiency is thinking the worst of your students. During the most recent Animo Taskforce Meeting, Bro. Ceci Hojilla, FSC said, “It is important to have a school that loves us, that cares for us, and that’s proud of us... For a student to love a school, it should be because the school wishes you good and does you good.”


While the stringent methods may only be a reflection of a Theory X philosophy, they may also be interpreted as the school’s view of its students. It is not easy to love a school that thinks you’re going to pocket org money or that you can’t resist writing X loves Y on a chair. Bro. Ceci said it best, “Extra-curricular activities involve generosity.” It involves going through all the trouble just to put up something for students. In this respect, student leadership is really a labor of love, with emphasis on labor.

If anything, the current system should be streamlined to allow students more leeway in organizing activities. Correspondence should also be made more human. Other than dealing with endless paperwork, why not replace them with conversations and discussions? Getting several signatures just to get a venue should be eliminated. One should do. Student leaders should be empowered to make decisions for their organizations and ideally, supervision should be minimal. I agree with Bro. Ceci, “We should return the school to the students.”

Efficiency, empowerment, bureaucracy, and feasibility share a deeper link other than being common words thrown in elementary spelling bees. One of them either contributes to or hampers the other. Efficiency can be derived from empowerment, and bureaucracy only hinders feasibility.


Now that doesn’t need to be spelled out.


and here is the letter that has been roaming around my email. It is a conversation (in letter form) of both Meryll and Ms. Bonnet regarding her reaction toward's Meryll's piece. Both were published in the issue of the La Sallian.



Dear Editor,

Thank you for giving OSAC (sic) the publicity we don’t need in your column of the September 17, 2004 issue of The Lasallian (sic). For the record, you have no right of implying OSAC (sic) of inefficiency because in the first place, you don’t know what exactly happens in the activity approval process with our student organizations. You don’t belong to any of the organizations that OSAC (sic) handles. No one from your staff ever came to ask whether the written policy is actually implemented as is.



The Journalism Act of 1991 states in Article 2, “Declaration of Policy.... To promote the development and growth of campus journalism as a means of strengthening ethical values, encouraging critical and creative thinking, and developing moral character and personal discipline of the Filipino youth....”



In as much as the OSAC (sic) supports this law specifically on, there is much to be desired in the way issues are handled by your paper. In the same vein, your being editor does not give you the license to just comment on a school policy without checking its real implementation scheme from the office concerned. The right to publish has the concomitant responsibility of presenting a balanced view. This is absent in this case. This is unfair for OSAC (sic).



Let me however state that despite the one month policy on fundraising and solicitation proposal of our student organizations, as per our official record as of 1st term SY 2004-2005, out of 33 fundraising/soli proposals received by the OSAC (sic), it took only 1 organization 8 days (the longest) to have their proposals approved due to incomplete requirements, corrections in their letters to outside entities and delay in picking up of documents from the office, whereas 44.42% of the proposals were given back in a day’s time. Why does OSAC (sic) require organizations to comply with procedures? OSAc does not only do service to organizations, we train and form organizational leaders to be good at project management. This is one of our reasons for being, and this we will continue to do so efficiently. I demand that you correct yourself in the next issue of the Lasallian (sic).



By the way, efficiency is not just equal to speed and accuracy. It is about doing the right things at the shortest possible time with the least cost.





In St. La Salle,
MS. KIT D. BONNET
Director

__________________________________


Dear Ms. Bonnet,

I have always believed that one can disagree with someone while still maintaining his/her respect for that person.

Forgive me if I belong to this school of thought, but that to me, is one foundation of intellectual discourse. After all, if it weren’t the case, all debaters would have to pay punitive damages for all their arguments.



First of all, let me state that the intention of my September column was never to undermine you or OSAc. In fact, reading it would easily reveal that my disagreements were with the activity approval policies and not OSAc per se. I don’t even recall mentioning your name or any categorical attribution to OSAc.



You say that you have a problem with “how issues are handled by your paper [TLS].” If by this handling, you mean that we have a students’ slant, then I cannot apologize for it. We are a student publication that is comprised of students whose mission is to champion students’ rights and interests. We are then naturally predisposed to have a student’s perspective. In fact, it is the reason we exist—to see things from students’ eyes and to serve as their voice. If this means having an EIC write a column to express her disagreement for certain student policies (yes, because SC and CSO leaders are students also), then we are just performing our function.



My column was not meant to disrespect you or your office. My only intention was to express an opinion. If in stating that opinion, I achieve the allegory objective of speaking on behalf of other student leaders (who do not have opinion columns to do so), then so much the better.



While I welcome disagreements directed toward arguments, I surely am not as embracing of words that begrudge my credibility. True, I currently do not deal with OSAc on an administrative basis, but I’d like to think that my three years in the SC have given me ample experience. Come to think of it, even if I were a mere editor who had not spent three years in the SC, I still would have every right to express my opinion. To use your logic would mean that only Congressmen could write opinions about Philippine laws. Imagine what little Conrado de Quiros or Randy David could write then if that were the case.



You mention in your letter that I have no right to comment because “the policies are not implemented as is.” That is precisely the point of my September column. If these policies are not implemented as is, then why are they necessary? And who or what defines whether they are implemented to the dot? What is the basis for the implementation?

I regret to inform you then that I cannot correct my opinion. In the first place, there is no such thing as a wrong opinion. And in the second place, well, you may refer to the next page.


God Bless,
Meryll Yan



Now you people judge if it is rightful that they give her a major offence. We should stand together and let us be heard...after all we pay for this institution, we are the one who make this institution.

I've got a new motto in life, in addition to my much lovable motto's in life. So here goes:

To travel is like a book, those who do not travel only read a page. - st. col

Cool right? I know that it is also true, because you'll never learn something from another country unless you yourself had been there and experience it. There are so many things life has to offer and you can't just appreciate everything through reading a page...you need to finish everything. Thats what makes it a perfect ending!

Oh, I got this from the White Chicks movie:

TRIPLE T K A time to totally kick ass!

So for those who don't like my blog, that is what I am going to do with you... haha

Currently indulging myself with the DISNEY channel with shows like SPIES GIRL, EVEN STEVENS, ALL ABOUT RAVEN, LIZZIE MC GUIRE and the upcoming show PHIL OF THE FUTURE ...I'm having a crush with the lead star, kinda-cute!

Speaking of stars, I wrote a letter to someone (which will remain anonymous, until he replies) and told him I like him so much.. (what a gutsy gal!) no, I told him I love the way he acts and how great he is in all of his movies, and he is one of my huge crush!

For those Ipod lovers, you can finally dress it up..add a tatoo to your Ipod to make uniquely you or if you want you can avail of the ready made tatoos (i.e. Vanessa Carlton, Gwen Stefani, Llyod Banks, etc.) for your Ipod's... the website is found at: http://hp.com/music (sample picture available below)

Found this great site which sells lots of great clothing:
LISA KLINE amazing...here are some of the clothes that I love...(much more is in the webbie)
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1. Appearing as, wishing to be considered as, or having undergone surgery to become a member the opposite sex.

2. Of or relating to a transgendered person or transgendered people.

It is not the same with being gay or lesbian...I have seen alot of transgendered yesterday at Oprah and I truly am amaze by their strong will and determination. Even if alot of people are making fun of them or teasing them about their status they still can cope up with it and fight for who they are. It is also tragic that this thing could happen...being born into a body that you know you will never accept? Isn't that weird? Well, I guess weird things do exist for if not, then there wouldn't be a word --"Weird". There was this young boy that at the early stage of 5 he realizes that he was a girl. " Mommy I want to play with dolls, I want to have a Barbie doll"

Alot of parents thought that it is just a stage in someone's life, some thought that they could change. But what the professional told and advice us, is to embrace those kinds of people, we need to understand them and give them what they want. They are free to have what they want...we shouldn't hinder them. Why? Because alot of these people that has been hiding and/or kept force by their parents to accept who they really are commits either suicide or rape! Now, isn't that much horrible?

And I would be partying... while everybody is in the cemetery and hopefully surviving the painful scorch of the sun, I guess I would be having fun and heading out to the gym, then maybe hitting the mall and lots of other stuff. My family don't usually do the "get-together-in-the-cemetery" thing, so we usually end up having fun on those days rather than having a sad one. Well, I think I haven't been in the cemetery before except when my lolo died, I guess that is it and it was only once. After that, it was never-stepping there again. My mom won't take us with her, actually she goes there very early like this time she went there this Oct. 26 to avoid the crowd...they don't like the crowd, and they don't like letting us be there. We are just pain and too-much so they rather go by themselves which is A-okay to me...after all, I don't want to spend a day there. I get scared...

Have fun to those going there...