Little Journeys of my life

After all the years I've been sad...

After all the years I felt so incomplete...

After all the years I've waited for my frogprince....

I never been so much happier in my life...

Never thought that the day would come...

I love him so much...

Oh...I got to share this...

He wrote me this March 1 2006 (wednesday):

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there's something about your smile, your laugh, the way you talk, the way you walk, the way you have a way with things...

...there's something about you that draws me closer...

...enchants me...

...something? not really...

...i guess it's everything about you...every single thing, every single detail...

sigh...i guess i just really love you...

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My gawd...I love you paopao!






I never thought I would love someone so much, like this....there is just something about him that makes me love him more and more...all the negative things about him? I dont care...they make me love him more...makes me understand him and care for him more...I dont want anything bad to happen to us..especially to him...God, I love him...dearly...

Forgive me for blogging too much about love, about him...it is just that I am too darn happy...of course, I feel sad for a friend, but I know sometimes we are up there, and sometimes we are down here...but no matter what happen you have me, our friendship...


I re-read my bloggings and ramblings before...I told this blog it is OVER, yes, OVER and DONE. But things turn out to be pretty much better and well, happier and lovelier...

I remember my post last November (well, since this sorta-love affair started at that time) I even posted last December 2 that it is officially OVER for me. haha...but now?Gawd. I am so much in love...as in I could see hearts in my eyes whenever I see him...I always wanted to see him...I always wanted to be with him...never a day goes by that I could bear not to see him...he is someone I always long for, someone I always would want to be with...I'm so deeply inlove....I wish this would be forever...I hope it would be...I pray that it will be....

Dino's party was such a huge outbreak...

a break from the office...
a break from the crowd (Neh...)...
A total break from the work...

I tried red horse beer and it was...ugh...the taste was just plain...eww....sorry for those who loves to drink, but I really don't drink so the taste really does not appeal to me. Anyhoo, it was really a very tiring but worth it night...

He picked me up at my house around 745 pm and we went to our friend's house where he dropped me off (he had another party to attend to) Well, actually where he ate and ran off! Haha...spend some hours at Bernice's house, we did pictures... I've posted it already at my multiply so just check it out there.

We arrived at Dino's house around 1030 pm and it was packed already with people...from his neighborhood to his blockmates, and barkda's...at first, I admit, it was kinda awkward and we are kinda outcastr from the rest, but it was really fun! I love that before the night end it became more and more interesting every minute!

I was waiting for him to arrive (paano naman, he was supposed to be there at around 11, but he txted me to say he's going to be late, because he can't go from the previous party - Tscha! honestly I was irritated...haha...) When he arrives? Hum..he tries to be sweet to be, but i was somehow in no mood (pakipot?) He even told me he loves me many times...which i didnt retorted back to... sorry medyo no irritated mood pa ako eh

We spend the night together, actually till morning, because we went out around 3 am already....

Gawd it was truly exhausting but really fun! I had a blast...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DINO

WEBSITE LIFE

Everyone knows I love making websites, and it occurred to me that recently? I've been neglecting it. Thanks to my work, and my weekend escapades I am neglecting a part of my life that I love to do. Obviously, I have not change the layout and it has been YEARS (exag.) since I didn't change the layout. I am planning to...actually, I am doing layouts, but when it comes to CSS or doing the HTML? Um...I am a little bit bitchy and lazy on that side. Result? Um...no new layouts... BORING!


WORK LIFE

has been smooth sailing...although I am experiencing a few bumps, but all in all...it is good. I got friends at work, my boyfriend (yes, I have a boyfriend, finally nh?) , my boss is good and well, I feel like a princess at the office! Except for the stuff I am doing, which is not appealing to me anymore...I want to try new things, traverse new path, and experience new stuff....Hopefully, it will happen one day...

FRIENDS LIFE

lucky elaine who will be out of the country on the last week of March til April something..lucky girl! haha...I want to go to, but I don't think my parents will allow me another vacation, let alone my boss to let me leave for vacation AGAIN! I might just get FIRED haha...but I love travelling...If there is one thing I could do if I got lots of money (besides liposuction) well, that would be travelling the whole world...of course, with my love ones, friends, and HIM!

haha....
Congratulate me...actually it was last March 11...one month na kami!

wahaha...........

Sorry and mea culpa for the 'word' that was used as my subject for today's entry. I just feel so f**cking bad and horrible. Anyways, I dont want to tell the world why I feel so depressed, more like a f**king shit hole! (yes, its related to my special someone) because I don't want to depressed people with my entry. So I'll post it as private entry. F**cking shit!

Hum.. I saw Johen for the first time in um... more than 2 yrs? haha..funny...because my sister was kidding when she told me she saw a look-a-like of Johen. And then, viola!, when I glanced at the direction she is pointing...I saw him with his girlfriend....but I didnt call him...haha...

Anyways..I miss my paopao....

I got a client call tomorrow, hopefully and luckily...I'll get home earlier!

We had a huge fight...

I thought it was over...

but thankfully naayos na...

God I love him...

finally im renovating..so bear with the messy links and images!

Yes...finally! A new layout...

I'm preparing for summer...as if I have a summer break!!



near end of April - Tagaytay with my honey
start of May - moi birthday...so fill it up with my parties!



So far that is just the schedule of my boring summer life...

toodles!

I just read Pam's blog..while she is loving the song from Hilary, I felt I love this song...for some strange reasons I guess because of my past? Maybe it will help some people too...because the song is somehow a lesson-to-be-learned.

"Because Of You"

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Ohmygod...I even went to their concert here in the Philippines (yah...like, why should you care?)

Here is there photo:

Hum..it seems like I'm devoting kinda lots of time on the internet...I mean, I kept on checking out if my friends posted new stuff..I'm so bored.

I really want to watch Nanny Mcphee but didnt get the chance to, well, I was supposed to go out with my friend Elaine but then she had another affair to attend to. Which left me without anyone I want to be with that day...my honey came from the mass and having the family day out...my other friend was also having the family day out...my sister got this 15 pages paper that needed to be done by today and submitted by tomorrow, my other good friend is currently working in China...the others? I'm kinda lazy to pick them up...haha... so much for an entertaining Sunday.

Yesterday, I spent the evening til early morning on Off-The-Grill in Timog with my officemates and of course, with my honey...I drank some beer (which until now tastes ewww...), ate a little bit of food since i'm still sate from our family dinner at Omasake (in Libis) it tastes amazing there!! I love Japanese cuisine and this one tops it along with Misato (Metrowalk)...then kinda got a mini-fight with my honey but it was just for a mere hour then its back to normal and sweetness...


ohmy...all I could think about and talk about is him..its always him on my mind...

And tomorrow...I'll die of boredom again. (darn work!)